Obstacles

Still doing make-ups, bear with me.

In my life, I feel that I am lacking a father. My father hasn't ever really been there and my step father, though he has been there since I was four, has never had a close relationship to myself. I often find us ignoring each other and walking the other way just to save ourselves the awkwardness. I'm missing out on all the things that could come from a bond with a father. I will not ever know what that's like. In my future, I can see it as an obstacle where my life will take me. I want to be an OB/GYN (delivering babies), which will take me many years of college. I want to eventually get married and have kids, but I don't want to be in my thirties when I am just meeting the right person, that is out of anyone's control though. I think it will be hard for me to figure out exactly what I want and how I will get it. Everything happens for a reason, what is meant to be, will be.