One piece of the puzzle seems to be left.

I am surely missing complete happiness...not as a boyfriend, but a better mother.
My dad is a good father, but he has his flaws, just as any other father.
When I was younger, I idolized my mom. She could fill in those flaws of his.
Now, she's at the very bottom, she is only made up of flaws, I can't find anything really good about her.
I am also missing confidence and social skills to the MAX. That's why I have so few friends, and I get rejected a lot.
Other than that, it's just little things....not really things that matter.