missing obstacles

I feel like I'm missing my family I loved the way my family was in elementary school and then I was homeschooled and when my sister and I went back to public school it seemed like little by little my family started changing and getting more busy. I miss my family from third grade... as for obstacles, I am an obstacle to my self....I get really down on my self sometimes and I make it hard for my self to do well at things that I want to do...