FEAR

What am I scared of? Wellllll..... probably fear itself. I don't like the feeling of fear, the sudden pulsing and dizzyness and the sweating. Pure fear, being truely frightened and scared. It just is no fun. BUT, I do enjoy some thrill. It's wierd. I guess I just need a little excitment. Such as rollarcoaters, oh yeah! Those are a BLAST to me! I'm a big rider. I think that mostly I like them so much becasue I know, or greatly hope I'll get off when it's over and not die on it or anything. I just enjoy the moment. Think about the "could-be's" and "what-if's" later.

I fear for others more than I think I fear for myself. All my nightmares are of others being hurt or harmed. I fear the feeling of loss. I have never had a huge loss in my life yet and I'm nervous to see how I would handle it.

I'm slighly scared of the dark. Sometimes I let my imagination get the best of me, other times I try to think more realisticly. But every once and awhile I find myself darting up the dark staircase from the unfinished basement through the hallway to my room at night ;) Who knows?? There are spiders down there for sure!!! lol I hate spiders. I don't fear them as much as i dislike them. They are creepy, crawly and NASTY! I love snakes though.

Halloween costumes and "Creatures" and whatnot is not scary to me. What's scary is real-life. Like REAL creepy guys and REAL killlers and murders and REAL...yeah you get it.

But other than these things, at the moment i can't think of too many other things i fear. I'm pretty brave I suppose;P