the world is going in a way that is freakish to me. i was that puppy and rainbow child, and then i was put in school, and told that people die because other people kill them, and where babies come from, and wow. thankfully i have people who stand behind me when i get overwhelmed, and i love them for that, but somedays i dont understand why the world goes round still with so much hate in it. it seems to me that the world would have grind to a halt by now, by the steaming hate that presses down on all of us.