I just can't keep up with this blog! Topics 6, 7, 13, 14, and 15

Topic #6: Fears

I have a lot of fears, but this is mainly due to the fact I have extreme anxiety issues and quite frankly LIFE scares me. I fear the future and I cower thinking about my past. Most of the time I get over everything while in the present but end up having panic attacks when I lay down to go to sleep at night. Oh and did I mention how badly I fear change. I probably have. I've got issues. But other than that I am afraid of death, heights, guns, and the thought of an eventual ending to the world. Haha.

Topic #7: Luck

I guess you could say I think there is some sort of luck out there. But not really. I'm not completely sure there is anything like that. I kind of think that every person has there good and bad days and we tend to just blame everything on this myth called good or bad luck. Personally, I believe that each one of us is destined to do certain things in his/her life and depending on what decisions we make we could either end up in a really good place or some where bad. It really all depends on your own out look on your life.

Topic #13: Resolutions

For some reason I feel like I did a blog on this already but I can't find it anywhere so I'm just gonna do it. I have been really dreading this year. I didn't want it to come. Honestly, my new years eve was spent wrapped up in a nest of blankets in the dark basement of my beach house watching depressing movies and covering my ears to drown out the sounds of my family upstairs cheering in the new year. So far my predictions about what this new year was gonna be like have come true. Everything that was so good last year has fallen apart. Don't get me wrong I've been trying to stay positive but that doesn't help. Well anyways, because of all this misfortune my resolution has been one word; Accept. I am using that word to get by. I need to accept the changes this year has brought, accept my mistakes of the past, and accept whatever else life decides to throw at me. Acceptance is my goal.

Topic #14: Bookssss

Oh god this is gonna be hard.

Top 5 favorites:
1. Tweak by Nic Sheff
2. A Series of Unfortunate Events by Lemony Snicket
3. Identical by Ellen Hopkins
4. Lord of the Flies by william Golding
5. Dry by Augusten Burroughs

I don't really read books that I won't like except these 2:
1. To Kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee
2. Hiroshma by John Hersey

I also reallllllyyyyy want to read Jack Kerouac's books. They look interesting

Topic #15: Video Games

Honestly, the video games that have been coming out lately I find extremely stupid. I don't like going around shooting everyone, and I definitely couldn't do that for hours on end. If I play any video games it is Mario or Donkey Kong. I like the originals. Today's video games just teach violence and make people act like freaks in real life. No offense to any gamers who might be reading this. But seriously go outside and take a walk, draw a picture, write, read. There's lots of really fun things out there that you can do in REAL life.